long time no update...
i haven't updated in a while, but then again nothing spectacular has happened, really.

no, mckay's did not hire me. instead they hired some dude that lives with jamin and wes... probably because he actually filled in the five spaces under "contemporary christian" on the little application quiz thingie they gave us. i couldn't think of any reggae musicians besides bob marley, either but i didn't know you had to have such extensive knowledge of bad music in order to shelve it. what-the-fuck-ever. fuck. trader joe's never called me so i doubt they're gonna hire me since they open in like, three days. the kroger fresh fare (a.k.a. the upscale kroger's in belle meade that is so much better than all the other krogers that it must be dubbed "fresh") is hiring for like, a million different positions so i'm gonna go over there in a minute and apply. i applied online for bread and company as they also have a sign that says "now hiring" but 'now' must be french for 'later' or something because when i called to follow up on my application they said it usually takes them up to two weeks to get to the applications. ???!!! do you need my help or not? also, the borders on west end is finally hiring. i applied online and went in the store and asked them about my application (i made sure to mention i'd worked for waldenbooks, a subsidary of theirs) but they just wrote down my name and number and said they'd "pass the information along". wtf? do i look like a child or something? i feel like no one is taking me serious whenever i come in looking for a job. i mean, what should i do? shove my fist in their face and yell about how my phone bill and student loans are three months past due and i dunno how much longer my roommate can afford our rent? jesus, i'm not looking to save up for a prada handbag here or money for my senior trip. i need a fucking job to survive so stop playing with me. i really really really want this borders job. i want it so fucking bad... it'd be so perfect... they're right there and i could WALK if i needed to and i've done it before and i know a lot about books and i could dress however i pleased and just... guh. fuck. i need a job so bad.

anyways, other shit...

reid came sobbing to my apartment asking me to take him back, all "i was wrong, you were right" blah blah blah. i dunno what to do. i love reid and i'd like to be with him but he just doesn't seem to know anything about himself. i guess i'll just hold his hand while he figures things out. besides, i don't want to be seriously involved with anyone while i'm all unemployed and trying to get my shit together. that's a little unfair. he can't separate my problems from his problems (whatever those might be... he keeps complaining to me about his friends [never any names, though, just "my friends" or "those guys"] yet all he ever seems to do is spend time with them) so i'm going to try to ignore all this until i've got my shit together.

halloween was pretty sick. i spent the day watching cj get his harry potter tattoo shaded and colored. then we went home to prepare for the evening. i was tank girl (pictures later?) and sarah ended up being priss from blade runner (unfortunately there was some other chick at the party dressed as priss, very spooky coincidence) and elizabeth was zombie amy winehouse. we looked great. i rode bikes to the warehouse with paige (dressed as the joker dressed as a nurse) and some of her zombified friends. it was a little cold, but the sweating made the bike ride very pleasant. patrick was there as prince with cj who had on a mask of the dude with no jaw from day of the dead. valerie was a terrorist and antony and damen didn't dress up (boo). there was much drinking and dancing and it was a lot of fun and afterwards we went home and watched black roses and passed out. i felt a little sad that i waited so long for halloween and it was over so quickly and i didn't get to see everyone i wanted and a lot of people pussed out and didn't dress up. next year i'll go to bike kill in new york and it'll be sickhouse amazing and there will be lots of crazy bikes.

so now me and sarah are doing our months-worth of laundry at her grandmother's house, waiting for her dad to call us to be picked up from the titans game. hopefully i'll find some time to ride my bike while it's still light out as it is absolutely BEAUTIFUL today. later.